Thursday, May 26, 2011

Staying awake for a long, long time

I have done 2 exams and have 2 more to go. One of them is this coming Monday and requires a significant amount of studying and memorising the info. It's a parrot-fashion learning kinda module and well, I'm feeling more like a tired person than a wide-awake parrot lately.

Now, I work every weekday and get up at 05:30 every morning and sometimes manage to get half an hour or an hour of study in before work, depending on traffic and then later in the evening, I manage 2 to 3 hours before I flop into bed and as a result, I am exhausted.

We are also currently only living on take-out as I don't have time to cook and then study and well, nobody else is prepared to cook and I suppose that you can take all the vitamins that you want, living on margherita pizza and ostrich piquante global wrapps will not make you any more healthy and will not really contribute to a feeling of overall "awake-ness."

This leads me to my two points:
1. I am running out of time. Criminology isn't difficult, it's easy but it's a LOT of easy!
2. I need to study through Friday night. Right through, yes. And then through Saturday day too. But how?

I have had various recommendations, none of which I'm terribly keen to try, and so I was hoping for some miraculous insight from some wonderfully clever or experienced person out there!

Just a few guidelines:

1. I don't do drugs. They are bad and permanent or even semi-permanent brain damage is not an option.
2. I do not stand on my head. By itself, attached to my body, with my feet or just as is attached by itself. Read it carefully, it does make sense. I mean, I don't hang upside down resting upon my head and nothing else. It gives me a sinus headache and makes me look like I'm terribly embarrassed.
3. I don't drink much coffee. two cups is more than enough and more than that will irritate my stomach, pack on the cellulite and just stress me out even more.
4. I do not handle large amounts of sugar or tartrazine well. I get hyper and bounce around like a 5 year old and then I get VERY cranky.
5. I live with two other people so I can't scream or play loud music or anything else.

O.k, those are the guideline. Any help would be great. Ready and go...

Monday, May 16, 2011

It sounded like a duck

So I have a pile of papers here on my desk that I need to sort out or file or throw out of the window or whatever and as I was signing in, these here papers were pushing down on the shift key and caused my pc to make a sort of quacking sound. It was weird.

Anyway, the rest of this has nothing to do with the quacking but perhaps much to do with "Quacks" and also with weddings.

I have been eating, sleeping and breathing my psychology material and applying every bit of it to my everyday life and it's starting to feel more ingrained, which is the whole idea.

Alan laughs at me when I tell him this is why so-and-so behaves the way they do and what could be done to help or improve the situation. I can't wait to get into it on a deeper level next year. It's lovely too how people are a whole lot more transparent now or at least, that a name and a reason can be assigned to their behaviour.

With regards to the wedding stuff, there are too many people on our wedding list and we now sit at a point where we don't know who to cut. I've cut off all of the people we're not close to or don't affiliate with much or just outright don't like and the problem is that now we genuinely want every single person on our list to be in attendance.

So we're on a budget and we have to keep our numbers to what is within the budget. The problem is, how do we decide who to boot and who to keep? Do we put names in a hat? Do we get all the guests to undergo a gruelling task? "You must run through our garden and around the washingline 4 times without being jumped on once by the big dog and licked once by the little dog" That would be a rather difficult task indeed and we may end up with nobody there! :)

I am getting more and more excited by the day and have even created an email address for when I am married :) So silly but so much fun :)

Monday, May 9, 2011

"I'm just not looking for a relationship right now"

This line makes me very angry. It has been said to many women and men and it usually means "I just don't like you enough to commit to you but hey, if you wanna just have some fun in the meantime, then that's ok". O.k, it could also mean "I've just been dumped or have just dumped someone and I'm a mess right now so no, rather not, thanks" but all too often, it's the prior.

One of my friends met a guy a while back and she is absolutely smitten with this man and he has such a nerve to use her and then treat her as if he's the victim when she brings up any sort of commitment. She has good values and won't do anything over the top with him but to her, kissing is serious and should be reserved for someone who has feelings for her.

She recently saw him again and things seemed different, as if he was more interested in being with her but alas, it was nothing more than a farce.

I am so angry with this man and I haven't even met him!

How can a man in his 30's say "I was hurt a year ago and now I can't move on! Plus, what you're feeling is all just your hormones and not actual feelings. You should take out these hormonal spouts on anyone you can find. For me, I drink and I dance and then I take advantage of drunk girls."
Is it just me or does that scream PATHETIC!! Also, dude, you live with your mom. By now, you should've made some plan.

Perhaps, my friend likes him because she has a strong sense of empathy and looks at his little pathetic self and thinks "Poor dude! Maybe he'll see that if someone likes him when they're sober and they aren't a raging hormonal teen, he'll see that all things are possible" but alas, her reasoning is faulty. It's not her fault, it's his.

So, Mr Chopface, this message is for you:

Firstly, cut your apron strings, kiss mommy on the cheek and move out. On your own.
Secondly, she's not 17 anymore, her hormones are fine. If yours aren't, perhaps see a doctor or go to gym.
Thirdly, taking advantage of drunk girls just shows how desperate you are to satisfy your hormonal urges as you can't seem to get anyone who would be willing to do so when they're sober!
Fourth, drinking to drown your pain is the first step in the wrong direction. A direction I personally don't care if you go in but I know that my friend will think so much less of you and it will truly be a big loss to you that the one and only person who genuinely loved you for you, as idiotic and bastardly and chop-ish as you are, (I totally don't get why!) will finally see the light.
And lastly, yes, you were hurt. Let's take a moment to feel sorry for you. O.k, times up. Yes, we all get hurt, we cry, we swear we'll never go there again, we get angry and then we let it all go and MOVE ON. So, poor diddums, get over it!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Birthday awesomeness

Yesterday was my birthday and it was a most fabulous birthday. Every birthday just seems to get better and better and it's all thanks to the special people in my life who choose to share it with me.

Thank you to Di and the Sutherlands and my mom and my wonderful, wonderful fiance for spending the day with me and making my day just so fantastic!

Thank you as well to the wonderful people who smsed me or sent me messages on FB, from the Howard-Brownes I haven't even met to my old friends from high school to my newer friends in Cape Town to Alan's cousin to some of my own first cousins I don't see very often. Thank you so much! Your little messages meant so much and really made my day!

I feel very lucky and truly blessed to know so many special people!

I finally got that ice-cream cake I've waited so long for complete with a little picture of lots of cartoon-ey people surrounding a birthday cake with the words "Eat me!" written beautifully in icing at the bottom :) Thank you, Al, my angel, for always trying to make my dreams come true, even if they're silly ones :)